Wednesday, June 27, 2007

Must find my mojo

Has anyone seen my blogging mojo? Somehow I've lost it and I can't seem to find it anywhere. I used to absolutely love sitting at the computer multiple times a day for hours reading everyone's knitting adventures, but for the last month (or so) ... I've barely sat at the computer at all. I'm sure I even owe many of you an email (or two, or three or maybe even four) with a "thank you" for all the compliments on my last pair of socks and the "get well" wishes, but all I can offer at this time is my deepest apology. It does mean a lot to get comments from you even if I've failed recently to respond. Please accept my humble apology and know that I'm going to sincerely try to do better at that.

The only thing that really explains my lack of activity in blog-land, is because I honestly just haven't felt well enough to sit at the computer for any length of time. I've been having my fair share of the run around with doctors and I'm fed up to my eyeballs with the whole thing. If you want to know what's going on, read the next paragraph, but if not, definitely skip it.

The last doctor told me that I probably do have hypothyroidism, but that he wanted to treat my fibromyalgia first. What? Excuse me? Fibro-what? Where did this diagnosis come from? He pretty much refused me the necessary thyroid medication and instead gave me some other drugs instead for the fibromyalgia. So where does that leave me? Well, I have a bunch of free meds I will never take for a condition I'm not sure I have, and still nothing to treat what I think the real problem is. I contacted my insurance company and although it's going to cost me some money, I've opted to refer myself to a endocrinologist. Thankfully I have an appointment Thursday morningand if I can't get the help I need there I'm throwing myself off the roof of my house. No need to worry though.. I have a single story home, so it's hardly even worth the climb to the top.

In knitting news, there's actually not been a lot of knitting in the last few weeks. Currently, I'm finishing up a pair of socks that I've been working on for weeks and weeks. I also finally figured out the crochet edge on my shawl that has been sitting unfinished for approximately a month. When I figured out how simple the edging was I was so mad at myself for not attempting it sooner. I think committing to not starting any new shawls until that one was finished was all the motivation I needed and now that shawl is finally blocking.

I've also just completed blocking the swatch for the Mystery Stole 3 KAL. I'm so glad MS3 came along and that I joined since this project actually has me excited to knit again. For the last 2 weeks, I haven't hardly even looked at my needles, let alone knit with them. Now that my swatch is complete, I'm anxiously awaiting the first clue for MS3, especially since I'm knitting with the Lane Borgosesia Cashwool yarn I picked up at the Loopy Ewe. It wasn't in the budget, but I honestly have been wanting a black shawl for myself and since there was no black laceweight in my stash, I HAD to shop!

By the way, the other photo is just a few more skeins of the Panda Cotton yarn in ivory. I didn't want the Cashwool to ship all by itself from The Loopy Ewe, so the Panda Cotton joined it in the journey to my home. I think it will be perfect for another pair of summer socks.


Yarn It said...

I am so sorry to hear of your continuing health struggles. I was hoping that maybe you were getting the help you needed. I will keep you in my thoughts.

Your swatch for the MS3 looks great! I may have to pick up some of that wool for something else.

Brena said...

I miss you! I hope you get better soon.

Laura said...

Oh sweetie!

I'm just going to skip all the health stuff, because, well, I just want you to be well. That's it. Get better. Hear? ;-)

Very glad that the Mystery Stole has struck a chord, and that your Handsome Triangle is done!!! Woot! I'm still looking to wind my yarn for the Mystery into a ball. Yes, still. My swift is defunct. Won't spin properly. Blech.

Get well. Feel better. We need to get together. Soon! :-) Still planning on giving the green shawl to a friend this weekend. Hollar if you can get together before or after your doctor's appointment tomorrow.


Carole Knits said...

I really hope you're feeling better soon. It makes me so sad to think of you feeling too crappy to blog or even knit. Waaaahhh. I miss my friend.

Angelika said...

I'm glad the Mystery Stole wave swept you into knitting and blog land again. Your swatch looks great. I'm redoing mine as soon as I get that doily off of the 2.5 mms.

SJ said...

Sorry that the health issues are still giving you troubles -- here's hoping that the endocrinologist will know what s/he is doing and will help you get better!

I saw that the yarn I sent you showed up in your stash on Ravelry -- saves me an e-mail to see if it arrived! I hope you enjoy it.

Karen said...

Don't worry one bit about not being up to blogging, commenting or e-mailing. What's more important is to get yourself feeling better - so focus on that instead!! We'll still be here when you get back, and we'll still love you. :)

Cathy said...

Oh Kristie, I know EXACTLY how you feel about not feeling well and not blogging! Maybe we can find the mojo together?!

Good luck with the Endocrinologist and your thyroid issues. I am going for the Nuclear Scan of my Thyroid next week (they wanted me to heal a bit from the hysterectomy before subjecting me to more awfullness!). Maybe we can get ourselves straightened out at the same time :) Good luck, let us know how you are and I pray with all of my heart that you are feeling better VERY VERY SOON!

Judy said...

You keep at it until you find someone who will help you! And get better soon. :-(

The lace is lovely! Of course you need to knit it. :-)

As for your blogging mojo, if I find it lurking over at my place, I'm keeping it. I could use some myself.

Anonymous said...

Oh Kristie, I'm so sorry to hear you are still getting the run around! Hopefully, the endocrinologist will have some answers for you.

The_Add_Knitter said...

Fibromyalgia seems like a condition that is either overlooked entirely in those who have it or suspected when nothing else makes sense. How frustrating that your doctor won't give you a cleared picture as to why it's being applied to you. I know how frustrated you must feel right now.

We'll all still be here when you're feeling up to it, take care!

Micki said...

I hope your appointment with the new doc went well!

Congrats on conquering the crochet edging for your shawl. I can't wait to see what it looks like in all its glory.

Oh, and great minds must think alike, because I really want a black shawl for myself too. :)

flutter said...

Honey please get a second opinion on the fibromyalgia. It is one of the most over and misdiagnosed pain disorders of the past 10 years, if need be demand to see a specialist. I would hate to see you suffer the bs that comes along with that particular diagnosis if it is not absolutely the case.
I am thinking about you.

KeanaLee said...

I hope things get better soon, sending you my thoughts!

tiennie said...

How frustrating to not have doctors that will not help you feel better. I hope your mojo comes back and you will rejoin all of us soon. Best wishes.

abby said...

I hope that things are looking up! I understand about losing the knitting urge, and I've let projects languish for way too long way too often. Ah, well! Knitting waits for us.

Marlene said...

If you find that blogging/knitting mojo could you tell mine to skeedaddle on home too? I'm sure they must be playing hookie together.

I'm not ill, just feeling too tired to knit or blog. Oh. Wait. That IS sick isn't it?